I struggle with writing more frequent blog posts.
It isn’t because there isn’t something to write about. There always is. And it isn’t because I’m not thinking. That never stops.
What is it I’m avoiding? The truth. Looking at things as they are. And writing about that.
I narrow the scope of my writing because I don’t think I know enough. And it’s true, I DON’T know enough. But I never will. None of us will. We have limited information, time and ability. But each of us DOES have SOME information, time and ability.
We have to come to a decision. Make a stand. Take action.
Also I hesitate to make decisions more as I get older because in the past I have formulated conclusions that were in gross error. I don’t want to do that again, so I put on hold all conclusions, all judgements.
And all action.
I inactivate myself.
I take myself out of the game. But as Christians we need to be in the game.
This is not a spectator sport.
How many of us go to Church on Sundays to “watch the game”?
The pastor may even make us feel as if we WERE in the game as we sit in the audience watching and listening to the performance.
But we’re not.
We’re just spectators.
Living vicariously. Playing it safe. Feeling as if we are really players.
I hesitate to say what I’m going to write next.
I’ve struggled to keep it quiet in my own heart and mind. I don’t want to believe the evidence. But here it is…
Christians aren’t expected to get in the game.
Worse than that, many Christians don’t WANT you to get into the game!
Unless it’s preapproved.
Sure they’ll preach and encourage you to “step out”, and even offer volunteer sign-up sheets to Church Approved events. But if your calling isn’t on the list they don’t even see you. You’re irrelevant.
Apologists are high on the list of the invisible.
Why is that?
Because we ask the tough questions? Because we’re willing to follow the evidence where it leads? Because we don’t care about power, status, prestige, passing the plate and filling the coffers as much as filling minds with real answers to real questions?
Why are we personae non gratae?
Are Apologists dangerous people?
No. We are only people who ask questions. Who never stop. We can’t help it. We were designed this way.
We are the perpetual two-year olds.
Always asking “why?”
If it’s the purpose of the church leaders to equip the saints, then all I am asking is that you help us with our calling.
You may think us narrowly focused on always being prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks us to give a reason for the hope that we have.
But we think the same of your calling.
We can’t all be the same.
There may not be many of us in the fold, but we were designed this way for a critical role in the spiritual health of the individuals in your congregation. You may not see it, but God does.
Please give Him the benefit of the doubt.
He made us for a reason!